Dee Hsu (Xu Xidi) has returned to hosting with 'Miss Not Dee', with her soul mate Kevin Tsai taking on the role of 'special host' personally to accompany his close friend as she officially announces her return to the hosting world. Dee candidly revealed that when her sister Barbie Hsu (Xu Xiyuan) passed away suddenly, she once blamed herself for planning the family trip, thinking that perhaps the tragedy would not have happened if she hadn't done so. Looking back even now, she still can't help but choke up with emotion.
During the show, Kevin Tsai gently asked Dee: 'Is there anything you’ve always wanted to say to everyone?' For the first time, Dee admitted that for a long period after Barbie's death, her life was almost a blank, 'I didn't know what I was doing.' When Kevin asked whether she had tried to numb herself with alcohol, Dee gave a wry smile and denied it, but she did admit that during that time, she often drank and chatted with their mother (Huang Chun-mei), as that was their way of expressing longing, 'We had to keep talking about my sister, to pour out our longing through conversation.' She further revealed that every time the conversation started, their mother would break down in tears after just a few words.
Recalling the last family moments, Dee couldn’t hold back her tears. She said that last year’s family trip to Japan for hot springs was initiated by her. At that time, Barbie, who always feared exhaustion and rarely went out, was unusually insistent on going. Although their mother opposed the idea because of the high costs during the New Year and didn’t want to be 'the fool who pays', the three daughters persuaded her, hoping to create wonderful memories — only for it to become a lasting regret. Dee, with a choked voice full of guilt, said: 'Every time I think of my sister, I wonder if not going, as mom suggested, would've prevented the tragedy.' Even though their mother tried to comfort her, saying 'You mustn't think that,' Dee still feels full of regret inside.
Kevin Tsai also shared emotionally that when he first heard the tragic news, his mind went blank, and all he could think was: 'What about Xu Xidi? Xu Xidi is finished.' He revealed that every action and decision he made during that period was based on the standard of 'Dee in her worst condition.' It wasn't until he saw Dee's performance at the Golden Bell Awards that he felt she was slowly finding herself again. Kevin felt relieved seeing that Dee's instinct to bring laughter to her audience remained. Dee also emotionally responded: 'Because you were there for the first episode when I returned to the studio, I felt very relaxed.'
News source: United Daily News